Need advice and help going crazy

[Yesenia g]

am 26 years old have two kids from a Dominican man ,who moved in with a new girl to Dominican Republic ....There goes child support ..... We use to live in a 1 bedroom apt and shared the bills. His infidelity ended our relationship. I couldn't take the fighting and he was cheating on me and saving money to move in with his mistress without me knowing. Now I know we all make our share of mistakes so please no insults I will report it. I have been living with my mom for two months and it is not fun ... My kids are four and eight months and I have a very difficult mother, I moved out at 17 and now I am reminded as to why I left so early.

To make a long story short my mom has always used me as the person to take out her frustratons out on ...mind you I was the only one who helped her cook ,clean ,and kept my grades up in the house as she was working all the time .... I even use to wash everyones laundry in the house even her boyfriend who molested me when i was a child ....I will get into that later .... My siblings who are only 23 both twins never had any responsibilities and she still cleans theyre room for them and does everything for them . I moved in after so many years with two kids and shes treating me like **** infront of my kids ... butting in on how I raise them ... and instead of focusing on my sister who is 23 with out a highschool diploma and does exctasy; drink and is sexually active with both men and woman she is in my business ... I give my mom money and pay the cable I am not here for free... my sister and brother dont contribute and they have the biggest rooms; my mom my boys and me are in the living room . I dont see why she wouldnt make my brother or sister give up a room for me and my kids I would do it for them . I am grateful for having a roof over my head but I just wish I had my own place I cant take this I have applied for housing 2 months ago and have sent out applications for low income housing apts and I understand its all about waiting list ... but I can't keep arguying with my mom infront of my kids I live in a living room and my kids needs space I only make 26,000 dollars a year and cant afford a place regular priced in new york .... I am thinking of going into a shelter but they are just as bad from what I hear ....Have anybody been in the same situation as me? help

[angie828]

I really feel for you. I have never been to a shelter. Aren't there any other programs that you could look into? Such as ones run by a church or something? I suggest you look there first. And good luck.